Monday, January 25, 2010

how you know a man truly loves you......

when he tells you how sexy you are when you're sick, nose red like Rudolph and your fragrance is vapor rub but he's looking at you like you're a centerfold

when he holds your hair back when you get sick

when he watches say yes to the dress, what not to wear or project runway with you

when he tells you that you are more attractive than a beautiful model, actress, singer

when he tells you you're perfect just the way you are, when you both know you could stand to lose more that a few pounds

when he grins to himself while you complain about your smile lines because he knows he is the cause of those smiles

when he braves the cold to pump your gasoline

when he holds you while you cry @ a commercial because you have pms

when he tells you that you are his best friend

when he believes in you when no one else seems to

when he understands that sometimes you don't need your problems solved you just need someone to listen

when his eyes light up when you tell him you love him.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Twenty Ten

Ok, am i the only one that thought we'd be riding around in flying cars by now? seriously, when i watched the jetsons or back to the future when i was a kid, i really thought that by 2010 things would be soooooo much different. i thought that there would be a cure for cancer, that i could buy my groceries with my thumb print and i'd have a hover board. the advancement in computers and medicine are impressive and i know we've come along way but where's my robotic maid?

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

The more things change......the more they stay the same.

The last few years I've noticed that sometimes the more things change the more they stay the same. Examples: 1. Every night of every year my son has been in school we have the same conversation about homework. He gets more responsible, smarter and capable with each passing year, however we still have the same conversation. 2. My job: I have switched law firms, and went from Plaintiff work to Defense work in the past 10 yrs but I still have some of the same complaints. 3. My Ex-husband, we aren't married anymore yet we still have disagreements over a lot of the same stuff.

4. This is my best example.......Mindtwister. He and I have a wonderful relationship and I love him very much. We have been through so much the last few years and we're now engaged. We don't argue very much but when we do.....it's the same 3 arguments over and over. We even have a pattern......one of us gets mad.......we try to convince the other that our view is the correct view......the other gives a rebuttal....one of us finally decides we are tired of arguing and says that we'll agree to disagree or that we're sorry and we'll kiss and make up. If I wasn't so angry when it is going on it might be down right comical.....he and I are both very stubborn.......very stubborn. The last time we argued it was heated........I was a little more hurt than usual so I argued a little harder than usual.....but in the middle of the argument I decided that I wanted to skip ahead. I leaned in and passionately kissed him and told him that I was ready for the make up sex. He laughed and agreed.

Maybe I can't change everything that I want but I can change the way I react.

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Project Positivity

Project Positivity - I've been feeling kinda down so I thought I'd give myself a boost with thinking positive thoughts. Below are 20 things that make me smile:

1. Having my boys or mindtwister tell me they love me.
2. Snuggling with my boys.
3. Falling asleep listening to mindtwister's heart beat as I lay on his chest.
4. The sound of my youngest son's laughter when he gets really tickled.
5. Hearing my oldest son express his views in a very grown up and persuasive way.
6. Seeing my sons' compassion for others.
7. Seeing almost all of my family on Christmas.
8. Spending time with my grandparents.
9. Getting doggie kisses from Borden.
10. Watching cartoons with my boys.
11. Figuring something out that I find difficult.
12. Hearing a song from the 1980s.
13. Finding a pair of shoes that fit and that I can afford.
14. Playing Wii with mindtwister and the boys.
15. Playing drums on Rockband.
16. Feeling appreciated.
17. Getting compliments.
18. Receiving a message from a friend or loved one.
19. Feeling proud of a job well done.
20. Being with mindtwister and my boys.

Random pics

Me playing with my crazy hair...lol

My Handsome Men on Christmas Morning


Monday, January 04, 2010

This song makes me happy.....Thanks Owl City!

You would not believe your eyes if ten million fireflies lit up the world as I fell asleep.
'Cause they fill the open air and leave teardrops everywhere.
You'd think me rude but I would just stand and stare.
I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm sleep,
'cause everything is never as it seems.'
Cause I'd get a thousand hugs from ten thousand lightning bugs
as they tried to teach me how to dance.
A fox trot above my head, a sock hopped beneath my bed,
a disco ball is just hanging by a thread.
I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when
I'm asleep 'cause everything is never as it seems. (When I fall asleep)
Leave my door open just a crack. (Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac. (Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep (Please take me away from here)
when I'm far too tired to fall asleep?
To ten million fireflies I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes.
I got misty eyes as they said farewell. (Said farewell)
But I'll know where several are if my dreams get real bizzare
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar.
I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to stay that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'cause everything is never as it seems. (When I fall asleep)
I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'cause everything is never as it seems. (When I fall asleep)
I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
because my dreams are bursting at the seams.

Saturday, January 02, 2010

another year has come and gone.....sigh

so here i am another year behind me. what has changed in the last year? well mindtwister and i got engaged.....that is one in the positive column. mindtwister survived a near death experience, my kiddos are happy and healthy, my family had a pretty good year all positives. where am i with my personal struggles.......the same place i was a year ago, two years ago, etc. i can't seem to get past some of my issues. i keep looking for the reasons......keep wondering when i will "wake up"? i've made the changes in my life that i thought were necessary to make it happen.......but then something small happens and instead of it being a minor set back, it is major and i end up right where i started.

i am going to continue on my path and maybe next year i will be closer to moving past my issues. only time will tell.